Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Hot Zone

I do not handle being sick very well. In fact, I hate to admit this, but I am a bigger baby than Ryan when it comes to illness. He could be bleeding out of both eyes and he would power through, going to work, getting things done, not taking medication, and telling himself he will be better soon. I, on the other hand, like to spend the time that I am sick in a dark room, heavily medicated, just waiting for death to come take me so I can spy on my funeral and hear how much everyone misses me -- even those people who would never admit it.

For instance, right now I have a cold. It is not horrible, but it is enough that it is impacting my mind, body, and spirit. I feel run down, stuffed up, and worn out. If I had gotten this cold six months ago I would have called in sick to work, put a NyQuil drip in my arm and crawled into bed, where I would have stayed until I was well, and (hopefully) five pounds lighter. Of course, now I can't do that, or at least I shouldn't, because, now, I am a mother, and my entire life centers on making sure Meg does not get what I have.

I can't believe I am saying this but all of the cold tablets I have taken have been the "non-drowsy" kind. And I have taken them all without wine. Oh, and I have been drinking tons of water, not because I am thirsty, but because I heard it will push the bug out faster, and I need it gone. I am washing my hands seven thousand times a day, and using hand sanitizer in between. Also, I have been going into work, because, if Meg does get sick, I need to save my leave to take care of her.

I am a little worried that this cold is going to scar Meg for life. You see, in addition to the protective measures above I also have been trying to keep Meg healthy by staying away from her. She has spent a lot of time in her bouncy chair, and on her play mat, and we have spent endless hours in car driving, since she doesn't seem to notice she isn't being held when the world is speeding by. When I do hold her, I face her away from me, so I don't breathe on her. And I say "I'm sorry" to the back of her head just in case she is feeling neglected. I was thinking of wearing a mask, but that is too creepy even for me.

First thing I am doing when I get better is SMOTHERING that baby in kisses. Well, not actual smothering, because that's illegal. Oh, and then? I am taking something that makes me slightly drowsy... Maybe a nice Sav Blanc.


Chief said...

I am sorry you are sick.. you are so good to try to shield Meg from it.

I will say, I feel as if everyone I talk to or read about it sick. What is going on!?

LB @Wait, She Said What? said...

Meg will thank you later. Probably.

It does seem like everyone has something. I have a very mild cold that has been taunting me for about 4 days now but never fully hit. So I may or may not be sick, but more then likely am. I think.

I hope Meg doesn't catch whatever it is that you have! Nothing worse then watching a baby suffer.

Anonymous said...

Sorry you're sick. Hope your feel better soon!!!!

Kristine said...

I always try to do this with my boys when they are sick.

Then my mother comes over, scowls, and tells me "Well, they've probably exposed each other before you knew one was sick."

And then I spray her with Lysol and shove her out the door.

Hang in there Meg! I mean Libby!

Yellow Trash Diaries said...

Oh you are in for so many fun illnesses once Meg gets a little older...you will be plagued by all sorts of rashy/fever-y things with crazy Dr. Suess names.

erin said...

When Olivia was three months old she caught a terrible cold from Rose...I never got it and was up day and night worried about her.
It didn't even seem to bother her.
In the end she was fine, just covered in snot...and I had lost a lot of sleep over nothing.
Hopefully you get better soon.
And if I catch your cold by commenting on here I'm going to be so pissed. ;)

Me, You, or Ellie said...

Oooooh, yeah. A Sav Blanc. Now you're talking.....


Aunt Juicebox said...

Vitamin D is supposed to help with colds. Not so much the C or Zinc, but the D, because in the winter, people get sick more and the theory is that lack of sunlight (meaning less vitamin D in the body) makes us more susceptible to colds and whatnot. Maybe taking more would speed up your recovery.

Summer said...

Hope you feel better soon.

Mrs. Sarcasm said...

I am so sorry you are sick. You sound like you hande being sick better then me!! Yes, I am that bad. It stinks when you realize you are grown up and have to save your sick days for kids...but 1000% worth it! Hope you feel better soon. And that Meg does't get it!

Mrs. Sarcasm said...

and I just became your 100th follower!! yeah for me...and you with that many followers. I envy you!